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Minggu, 02 Desember 2012

a story behind a rainy night

assalamualaikum
tiba tiba kepengen posting padahal lagi banyak tuntutan tugas sana sini :'
sekarang pun masih berjuang buat paper lia :') but, I do enjoy these stuffs
ya karena mau nggak mau juga semuanya mesti dikerjain ..
kita udah berani ngambil keputusan buat ngelakuin sesuatu dan harus berani sama konsekuensi! sesusah apapun itu, secapek apapun itu, dan seribet apapun
memang ya kadang kadang ga bisa munak, I do tired and sometimes I wanna scream "get me out of here" or when something intruded my mind randomly asking "why do am here?" yaa tapi kembali ke prinsip yang gue lagi coba buat tanem di benak gue, yang ngebantu gue buat bertahan sampe sekarang, doing this stuffs.
dan buktinya emang udah ada sewaktu lo tersenyum puas sama yang lo udah lakuin karena percayalah
The ones who work hard will get good results but, the ones who try harder will get better than anybody else
kata kata yang udh sering bgt kita denger tapi susah buat dilakuin ..
yaa mau gimana lagi, this is life. A jungle that you have to pass before reach the waterfall in front of.

kadang gue heran kenapa sesuatu itu bisa dateng pd waktu yg lo ga prnh duga sebelumnya
bahkan lo ga pernah sedetik pun ngebayangin hal itu sebelumnya
karena rahasia Allah itu sangatlah ga terduga ..
dan kalo lo termasuk orang yg ga suka kejutan yaudah, ga usah hidup. Life is full of surprises, dude!
who knows that besok lo dapet rezeki seabrek? jadi, jgn lupa berdoa dan inget sama yang diatas.
kalo mau lancar hidup? Minta sama yang diatas
mau rezeki? Minta sama yang diatas
mau jodoh? Minta sama yang diatas
kita dikasih kesempatan buat minta sebebas bebasnya, seluas luasnya, dan ga bayar pula
ibarat kata kita dikasih kesempatan buat minta unlimitednya internet tanpa kuota yang mesti lo cemasin
terus kenapa bingung waktu ada masalah? kenapa mesti susah susah ngutuk diri lo sendiri buat sesuatu yang belum tentu gabs lo miliki
There is time for everything
waktu itu jawabannya. bersabarlah, lo bakal ngedapetin apa yang lo mau selama lo ingat buat berdoa dan ingat ikhtiar.

oiya, akhir akhir ini gue tergugah banget sama lagu Utopia yang baru entitled "Yang Lalu Biarlah Berlalu"
gue kasih liriknya nih
Hidup ini terus berubah 
selalu berganti
ada duka dan ada tawa disana

jangan pernah engkau menyesali
semua yang telah kau lewati
lepaskan semua

yang lalu biarlah berlalu
biarkan saja apa adanya
yang lalu biarlah berlalu
jadikan kisah hidupmu


gue ada bagian yang setuju dan ga setuju sih dari lagu ini
menurut gue kalo didenger denger emang bener banget apa kata lagu ini 
cuma kalo menurut gue, sesuatu itu terjadi buat jadi pelajaran masa depan
like what a quotation stated that "experience is best teacher"
sesuatu yang udh lewat, jangan cuma dilupain, jgn cuma dibiarin berlalu
lo ga mau kan jadi fool person yang lebih bodoh dibndng kancil yang ga mau masuk ke lubang yg sma
kenapa kita mesti capek capek ngerasain sakit sekarang kalo dimasa depan masih bakal gini jadinya
kenapa mesti capek capek struggling at one thing kalo nantinya lo mesti berjuang buat ngelaluin hal yang sama (lagi)
pengalaman juga yang ngejadiin kita more mature than before
terus kalo menurut gue, terkadang kalo kita ngelakuin suatu kesalahan, terkadang yang diatas masih ngasih kesempatan kita buat perbaikin kesalahan kita
so, kenapa mesti ngelawatin begitu aja dan nanggung lebih banyak konsekuensi di masa depan kalo kita
masih bisa berjuang buat memperbaikin hal tersebut
yaa tapi gue tau kok maksud lagu ini bagus banget
kita gaboleh hidup di masa lalu! ga bole ngebiarin masa lalu ngerusak masa depan kita! you've gotta to move on. sekeras apapun itu.. karena percayalah "There's rainbow after rain" and "Every cloud has silver lighting"
setiap masalah pasti ngebawa kita untuk menjadi lebih baik jika dilewatin dan diperjuangin sebaik baiknya dan setiap masalah pasti punya penyelesaian and you always have choices in your life~
wasallam :) 

Minggu, 28 Oktober 2012

how to spell F-R-I-E-N-D-S?

As I told you on the title, it is stated "how to spell friends?"
what comes on your mind when that word emerge?
is that a group of people who spend most of their time to be with you? on your boom time? or bast time?
well, for me everybody could be one of my friend. we're laughing, or the worst, we're crying together.
and I could find them in every place I go. and this what I'm to introduce to you guys. I got new friend on my college. they are not the best of all, not the one who I can share all my feelings to them but, at least they are trying to the best and I believe we would pass this college times together successfully :)


Senin, 22 Oktober 2012

College stories - transport

good night
such a random feeling! arghhh!
too much task, too many activities, too lack time of sleep ..
rasanya hidup gue sekarang flat banget, lebih flat dibanding tv paling flat sedunia :[
sekarang gue cerinya about Transport nya dlu deh ya, check this out! gimme the beat yoww!
ehm ehmmm check sound hahah :p
okeeee gue bangun pagi dari jam 4 subuh, dari bangun pagi pagi jam 4 subuh aja masih telat aja bawaannya, secepet apapun bangunnya jadinya telat mulu, gue kayaknya udh ketularan banget sama penyakit ngaretnya evan, gusti, ru, and cs :s
mana sekarang skill gue  ngendarain mbum nambah deh, yaiyalah orang tiap pagi mesti dituntut sampe bukit dalam waktu 15 menit dari km 11!! apa ga gila gue?! pokoknya sekarang minta lindungan aja dah sama Allah semoga selalu bisa sampe dengan selamat o:)
kalo sampe bukit lewat dari jam 6.15, wah kelabakannya badai deh, ya iyalah 6.20 antrean transmusi lebih lebih orang ngantri bbm kalo stok lg abis :s , yang bikin gue heran sampe sekarang itu ya tangga haltenya itu lho, apa ga roboh tuh berhari hari, pan tiap hari beragam- ragam orang naik di atasnya, beragam - ragam berat badan pada naik semua ke tangga itu. wah pemerintah terutama unsri mesti ngasih reward tuh ke orang yang bikin tangga itu, amazing booo!! sampe sekarang masih amazed aja gue haha
belum lagi rebutannya naik transmusi kalo udah kepalang rame itu MasyaAllah :o hanya Allah yang tau dah :s ya iya yang rambut dari ngembang jadi lepek kayak diguyur minyak sangkin keringetannya, mana udah badan didempet dempet sama orang lagi. pokoknya kalo kondisinya uda gitu percuma deh dandan cantik - cantik mau ke kampus, belum sampe kampus aja udah kumel, kudel, kucel. gimana mau gebet cowok kalo gini terus hiks hiks, oh dasar mblooooooo~
syukur syukur kalo ada temen yang udah berhasil lolos dari kegerombolan singa yang lagi kelaparan mau masuk resto bintang 7 *re: pengantri setia transmusi, mereka biasanya ngambilin tempat gitu. nah disini yang lucu banget, kadang bawaannya mau ngakak aja, gimana nggak coba, kalo udah berhasil masuk transmusi itu beragam ragam style dah buta ngambilin tempat temen. ada yang begitu masuk, langsung ganti profesi jadi loper buku, semua buku dari tas ditebar ke atas kursinya, itu syukur kalo lagi bawa buku banyak, kadang sangkin niatnya nolong temen, ada yang langsung tiduran gitu di kursinya, jadi bisa ngambil 3-4 tempat deh kalo kursinya ditidurin gitu hahaha, apa nggak kreatif tuh hahha :p tapi kadang kesel juga sih digituin, orang kita capek capek antre eh malah digituin, rasanya pengen teriak pake toa "emang lo fikir ini tm punya nenek lo?!" tapi yaaaa, kalo kursi yang ditempatin itu buat kita, omongan nya jadi beda "emang iya, tm ini punya nenek gue. terus lo mau apa?! hah?!" haha :p yaaa human being la yaaa~
kan  ya kalo dari palembang mau ke inderalaya itu, ada 2 jenis transportnya, ada yang AC, ada yang nggak ya itu diaaa, yang AC itu yaaa yang gue ceritain panjang lebar, yang jadi primadona sekarang. nah yang kedua yaa itu dia namanya bis kuning. gue sih kalo bisa gamau banget naik jenis kendaraan ini. ongkosnya juga ga jauh dari naik tm, kalo bis kuning, ongkosnya 5rebu, kalo tm ya cuma nambah 2rebu jadi 7rebu. kan lumayan sama fasilitas yang kita dapet dari naik tm. udah bebas debu, nyaman, aman, tentram, dingin, sejahtera dah kalo naik tm itu :$. tapi ya iya gue naik tm nya cuma waktu pergi doang, kalo baliknya cepet sebelum jam 3 sore pasti masih kebagian tm deh, tapi kalo lewat jam segitu wahhhhhh ibarat kata bagai pungguk merindukan bulan deh :s iya soalnya di halte unsri inderalaya, ga ada spot pasti buat naiknya, ga ada tangga nya itu lho jadi rebutannya teramat amat ekstrem!!! tm nya baru aja dateng, baru aja belok udah pada  nemplok ke pintu depannya semua, ngeri banget deh pokoknya. yang cowok mana ada yang mau ngalah lagi kalo soal transport, apalagi jenis satu ini. semua orang mau balik coy!! :o makanya kalo baliknya sore, apalagi kalo ada kegiatan yaaaa mesti naik bis kuning itu :' yaa satu satu penolongnya ya itu dia masker princess ku tercinta hahahha

wah wah banyak juga gue udah ngetik :o iya deh pokoknya kuliah PP Plg- Inderalaya itu manis asam asinnya kerasa banget, gado gado kalah dah! serunya ada, keselnya ada, semuanya ada gabung jadi satu. ga bakal abis kalo diceritain haha
nanti ya gue lanjutin lagi sama posting posting tentang perkuliahan gue yang teramat penuh liku- liku ini :' hari ini masalah transportnya dulu hhi
oh ya, this day is 22nd Oct, I can not wait to see my dad and mom InsyaAllah on 9th November hhi
oh gosh, I miss my parents so damn :(
take care there, we're waiting here mom, dad. Much love <3 p="p">
thank you so much for your time that you able to read my long cuap- cuap ini hahha
have a tight sleep ~XOXO 

Minggu, 07 Oktober 2012

randomly, only a freak can do

bintang malam katakan padanya, aku ingin melukis sinarmu di hatinya
embun pagi katakan padanya, biar ku dekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya

taukah engkau wahai langit? aku ingin bertemu membelai wajahnya
kan kupasang hiasan angkasa yang terindah, hanya untuk dirinya...
lagu rindu ini ku ciptakan hanya untuk dia yang tercinta
izinkan ku ungkap segenap rasa dan kerinduan.. 
( Kerispatih- Lagu Rindu )
how to state it?
how to tell you?
how to make you understand?
how to know whether you fell the same way as I do?
how to maintain it?
how to make you keep your promises?
how to make you hold on with your words?
how to make your eyes opened?
how to make you see?
how to make you feel it?
how to make you know that I miss you?
how to make you stand here, sit here beside me and hold me close?
and you can't imagine.... how those questions filling my head seconds by seconds...
I have been sick at these stuffs for so long! I just feel stuck, feel in a quandary and I can't move away
I miss you
I can't sleep,
I just can't breathe,
when your shadow is all over me, baby.
Don't wanna be a fool in your eyes, 

'Cause what we had was built on lies.

And when our love seems to fade away,

Listen to me - hear what I say...

I don't wanna feel the way that I do,

I just wanna be right here with you,
I don't wanna see, see us apart,
I just wanna say it straight from my heart:
I miss you...

What would it take for you to see?

To make you understand,
that I'll always believe
You and I can make it through,
And I still know I can't get over you.

( Westlife - Miss you )

Minggu, 30 September 2012

Alpha

I've been walkng thru many places and met many people
They tried to make me walk away from you
But, i see something that make you different from others which made me fallin day by day, more and more
Have you feel that?
Seeing someone looks so sparkle and shining and even you can't find another who brighter than him, lovable than him, and can't find someone who amazed me more than what you did
You aren't the one who handsome and charming of all, you never act as you are the most romantic one, in fact you almost late in doing many things, you were late when you need to pick me up and you are late to told me sbout what you feel. But, i do know what is hiding behind what you did
You held me and i can't feel more comfortable, you know how to told me some jokes that probably not a jokes, you said something and i just felt you did something funny
You  ain't doing something which better than anyone did, but i do feel comfortable  in telling others about what you did, about your fool habit,  about everything that related to you
I know you can't  come and stand beside me whener i want you to, you can't  held me when i am upset, you can't see me smiling directly when i feel happy and so do me
I am not telling you about what i feel, i am not telling you what is hiding inside of ma heart, i am not telling you how happy i am when you can be there to listen about my long and tiring day
What i am hoping is you are there and feel the same way as what i do ♥

Jumat, 13 Juli 2012

You

My mind is spinning round and round, there's something special I have found on you. So special then made me mad to think about it, mad at you....... Mad then falling for you Fall so deep inside then trapped there....... I have nothing to make me go away from you, I have nothing that make me regret for knew you...... You did it successfully, you stole mine...... My day, my night, even in my dream How everything happened unexpectedly, how times gone, how times fly away... I'm so deeply in love, you fulfilled my life now.... You came as a sun, as a lightning, as my rainbow after rain, as a brother, as a bestfriend, as a guider then show me the way .... I swear, am so glad to know you, too glad probably..... You came in ordinary you then colouring my days And you need to know, it's lovable ❤

Rabu, 27 Juni 2012

Everything you do ❤❤❤❤❤❤

From the moment you looked at me And ever since you called my name You've been everything that I've seen And know I'm caught up in this game My mind is spinning round and around There's something special I have found Every time I close my eyes All I can think of is you and me Oh baby can't you see That everything you do Everything that you do Makes me want to go... Everything you say Everything that you say Makes me want to go... They're trying to build a fence By saying that this won't last They tell me I don't have a chance That everything moves too fast But every time I close my eyes All I can think of is you and me Oh baby can't you see That everything you do Everything that you do Makes me want to go... Everything you say Everything that you say Makes me want to go... That everything you do Everything that you do Makes me want to go... Everything you say Everything that you say Makes me want to go... My mind is spinning round and around There's something special I have found Every time I close my eyes All I can think of is you and me Oh baby can't you see

Selasa, 26 Juni 2012

Me

People said that when you got yourself care to another, it means that you love them, and when you got your self angry easily and become a moody ones, it means you have fallin. Am I fallin?

Random

Good nite everybody How was your day? I got a bad day today That was what I'm afraid with Am scared that this feeling would changed, and doubt comes to me as a dam* thing I hate to trust someone than feel guilty of my self Feel pity to myself that became so fool That's why I hate lies and promises How guy spoke easily, told us sweet things as sweet as candy, than dump us as easy as a trash How could they do that They came and begged as a beggar than could kick us as we are a beggar, not them I hate it, when they tried all things that could make us melted then fall for them, but what, after we fall is just like we fell, hurt! Sometimes it's too complicated to think about this They just like a yellow streak and I hate so bad How it supposed to be happened? This is random and so do what I feel

Minggu, 24 Juni 2012

hell-o

hi hi hi hi hi
look at me, it's me, yeah, it's me
what I feel right now is, it feels like I'm in another person's life
the worst is I don't know my self anymore, it's too complicated to tell the whole things
but, I'm happy being like this, every day he comes to my day and bring me to happy and you know I can't stop smiling because of this :-)
hmmmmmmm he is the one who loves his family, who treats me very well, the one who knows how to change my mood when I'm down, the mature one, and he's too wonderful to be described :-)))))))))))))))
he came to me as a brother, as a best friend, as a light, as a fire, as everything :-)))))
Am so grateful to knew him, thanks Ya Rabb o:)
Am wishing that he would be the one who colored my day now, tomorrow, until the next following days :-))))))))))))
thank you mas peyi :-))))

Minggu, 03 Juni 2012

Sunday's blue

Good night people, how are ya? Do you hv a great day? Well it such a random feelings to describe what i feel right now I just feel empty and It feels like i am running on a spinning wheel which hard to stop,that's what i feel, tired and confused. It feels like hot and cold or let say you make me jump then fall, but behind this stuffs, remember that when you put me too deep and when i feel hard to raise myself up, that's the moment when you wouldn't find me anymore :-')

Kamis, 03 Mei 2012

long time no see!

hey ya, selamat night
it's almost middle of the night, we I got some bright shines that bring me to write here, tonight, and in this condition
exactly, this time, i'm doing my physics in a book that my course gave to me, and as you know the thickness of this book is more than 700 pages!! and it fulled with so many questions :""
I am 17th and in the middle towards 18th, and I'm going to be college's student!!!!! *amin
you know, I just want to share what made so hard to write and publish some stories
well, as you know, my schedule has been full-filled.
now i need to go to some courses that InsyaAllah would bring me to my destination
well, I just want to cure, and healed a person, and I hope that's exactly where I belong to

and a few days before, we had a farewell party, that held in Novotel ballroom, this place is a hotel
we had so much fun and I felt so hard to let them go, they are friends that used to be surround you for a long time, we shared so many things together, and I love my SMA Plus Negeri 17 Palembang so bad!!! <3
i love the way every person in this school try to keep our names in the high place without any pride

this is my school and i'm so proud to wrote some stories in this school! <3
our beloved school's gate

and this is some pictures of farewell party

here we go.......
this is us, the girls of GALAKSI, look at us! we're beautiful right? ;;)


this is me and mb' piks. she is a nice extra ordinary person. i'm gonna miss you a lot :'

 this is me and MENTARI RIZKA PRATIWI, she's my chair mate, she's nice and a creative one, wish you luck ya tar :*

 this is us from bottom left  : MUWARNI a.k.a icang, she has a good leadership
then, PRIYANKA a.k.a anka, she is good at japanese, moshi moshi :p
next, here we go, our beloved teacher, MR. BAHTIAR RUSMANA a.k.a mr. tiar cheosz *i don't know exactly what cheosz means haha* he's our beloved one, he's patient, kind, pay his attention much at us, and I can't describe anymore, because this posting would be so long if I describes him, thanks for the way you treated us, sir. we <3 you!!
besides, there was MENTARI a.k.a tarski or tar, i did mention about her 
and next, yeah the most beautiful one with a pink 'kebaya' it's me!! <3 hahhaha
besides me, there's VENNY ULYA BUNGA a.k.a ulik or octopus or cumik. you have to know, she's so weird to produced a lot of sweats on her hands, but, she's adorable, miss you mik :*
next, there was SUCI LARASATI a.k.a sucik, she's a religious ones, she's smart and has a good spirit, sometimes she courage me to do somethin' better

now, from above left : first, our little one, ARINI PERTIWI a.k.a arini, she's so kind and you have to know her ambition is want to be an elementary school teacher. it's so touchy, right? :' wish you luck  bu guru
next, the middle one, she's ELLIN MUTIA SARI a.k.a elen, i don't know how to describe her, I think she's so funny and kind a weird ones *peace* sometimes, when people around her in the silent condition, she would break the ice, by singing but, the songs is out of mind, I think hahaha
the last but not least, FITRI PERMATA SARI a.k.a pipit, she's a honest ones, when you do somethin' that she don't like, she would tell you honestly, I think it's good and can't be bad too, just take some range of what you're doing :)

 okay, it's guy times *but you can change the word 'u' in guy becomes 'a' haha*
here we go, from the red ones then turn right : his name is NIKODEMUS S.P.L TOBING a.k.a nikc or niko. he's our leader, he's a nice person and kind of responsible person, but, he can be annoying ones too and when he did somethin' annoyed, i felt want to puncture a needle on his body so he can blushhhh like a balloons hahaha, i'm just kidding koch :p
next, his name is WIRA PRADIPTA a.k.a wira or kuntok or doraemon, as you read that he's similiar with doraemon, a cartoon figure, he's  smart and kind, he has a pink lips that would bring you turn green with envy with that, especially girls, how he supposed to have that, it supposed to be girls' haha 
next, BANISSALAM a.k.a bani or bankon, he's a economic ones, I mean he sell everything that can be sold but, keep going. I wish you can role a big company like what you wish o:)
here, ALVIN TAUFIK HIDAYAT a.k.a alvin or alvins, hmmm he's actually my friend since elementary school, he's kind but 'mesum' . I think he needs to do 'cuci otak'. his ambition is want to be a doctor, and I can't imagine what he gonna do if he still kind of 'mesum' person hahaha. keep going vins, I wish the best for ya! :'
next, EVAN IMAM WIBOWO a.k.a epan. he's handsome actually *don'tfly* but, he's so weird that he love spongebob so bad. oh come on, you're going older hahha. but he's so kind, he always beside me when I was in a trouble and in a quandary, his solutions would shined my way to think. thank you for being my best guy friend, wish you luck at AKPOL o:)
the last, MUHAMMAD AKBAR a.k.a yumi or yumna or the most idealist nickname akbar haha, he sounded a little hha, he wanted to be an army, God bless you for that o:)


 next, from right BRENDA METTI RIEFANI a.k.a Ebens. she's so kind and funny. thanks for the moments when I put my car in your home, and so sorry if I made you mind :*
the left ones, is REGINA DWI ANGGRAINI a.k.a ngingeng or anggi. she's so kind and funny. she's my chair mate when try out held. she wanted to be psychologist . Good luck for that dear, I pray for ya! :*

 this is me with Tari again xoxo


 this is us with Mr. Muslim, thanks for the moments and the way you taught us pak, we love you, and you're memorable 

 here we go, from left  : me, and besides me there was FENITA PUTRI SAETIKHO a.k.a my pimk. WE LOVE PINK SO MUCH, SO BAD!!! that's why I called her pink and she did the same way. she's pretty, adorable, and extra ordinary, i'm gonna miss you so much my pink :' :* 
next, Tari, nesides her, NYAYU INSYIRAH a.k.a iins, my sister, she's older than me but, the way to think and act is seems like younger than me, she's kind, adorable, and easy to get 'galau' haha. i'm gonna miss you dear, we're gonna meat with a stethoscope hang on our neck :* 

 this is me with my pink 'kebaya' <3



to be continue dulu deh ya, ngantuk hehe see ya xoxo


Sabtu, 07 April 2012

how it supposed to happened

it started easily like a fire which burned the paper that looks so weak, so lack of energy, but the fire seemed like some energy capsule that raised me up actually
how it came to me, and bring the spring season to me easily, bloomed all of my roses
bring me to the feeling which contains some chemical substances that gained mine and bring me to the oxidation
how it flew like blood that seems like walk through my artery freely
it sounded like some tones that fly away from my fingers while dancing on the white and black keys
it felt like count the number which is stand in the corner of the triangle
it was complicated like when you felt upset to count the mass of things that flew away from some oblique fields
yes it is, the complication that you've been made since you stepped on my ways, you bring it all and without any courage to take a responsibility of what you doing, you started to ruin my life, everything. it seems like some notes from underground which raised easily and left my floor broken and even you pursue your self to not to admit it. you've been lied to yourself and everything surrounds you
yes, it all supposed to be happen and it will always in that way

Sabtu, 24 Maret 2012

random

Assalamualaikum.Wr.wb
so many stuffs to do :'''
well, as you know, i'm in the 3rd grader anddddddddd i'm going to face NATIONAL EXAM SOONNN!!!! 
i have passed almost 3 years at this school and i'm going to face the real life *backsound: we are the champions* *ketawalebarsampekoyakmampus* i'm going to take a serious level of my learning process toward my dreams *mataberkaca-kaca* *1000kedippermenit* and i hope i will reach what i have been dreaming since i was kid. Although i know ya guys, to be a doctor is such a common ambition. every body dream their life with that way, tapi kan kan siapa tahu Allah punya rencana buat aku buat masuk sana, kan gak ada yg ngelarang juga *memicingkanmata*
i ever heard a quotes,
live your dreams, and you're gonna live you life
well people, just pray for the best for me *jedukinkepalaketembokbiarorangkasian* eits, what's "jedukin"? -__-
yahhh karena, kalian semua mua udah rela ngedoain, somewhen i'm going to post my cover to sing and play this  song with my piano, you know, this is the song that my group and me made for the examination of art lessons. just hope the camera will work well hihihi
see you soon, cao ~

Selasa, 06 Maret 2012

butiran

Sally tersenyum dan beranjak pelan dalam dekap kepedihan dan haru. Senyum pelan yang seakan menyampaikan pesan 'biarkan aku di sini'. Ia meraih ponselnya dan membiarkan jarinya menari untuk sekejap. "terima kasih, semoga kau bahagia :) ." Perlahan air runtuh, bak butiran hujan yang tersentak petir. Hatinya bergemuruh dan bahkan kakinya pun tak sanggup untuk menapak. Ibarat seekor anak burung yang tersesat dan tak tahu arah, ia meninggalkan rumah itu. Ia sadar, mengharapkan keajaiban pada saat ini, merupakan sesuatu yang sia - sia, bak mengharapkan adanya hujan badai di tengah terik gurun.
Sally berusaha mengangkat tubuhnya dan mulai melangkah, tetapi kepalanya seakan tidak mempunyai energi sedikit pun untuk menengadah ke atas dan tidak mampu untuk menatap mantap. Hatinya kalut bukan main, penyesalan memenuhi benak dan mengalir deras dalam darahnya. Lamunanya yang kosong terhenti ketika sebuah pesan singkat muncul di layar ponsel. " Ya kuharap kau mengerti, temui kebahagiaanmu Sally." Kali ini tak ada yang sanggup menghentikannya untuk tersentak dan terjatuh. Ia mengangkat kedua tangannya dan menyapu bersih air mata yang terlanjur jatuh bak banjir bandang.
Di bukanya pintu kamar seraya menyeret kakinya untuk melangkah ke dalam. Meraih ponselnya, membuka sebuah pesan singkat dan dengan enggan merangkai kata - kata "Tenang saja, aku sudah sampai, tak usah mencemaskanku
to be continue~


Senin, 05 Maret 2012

dia~

dia yang memulai tapi tak sanggup mengakhiri
dia yang meraih tetapi tak kunjung sampai
dia yang melakukan tetapi tak menikmati
dia yang terbawa arus tanpa tau kapan harus berhenti
dia yang meringis kecut akan sengatan tajam belati perih
dia yang membuka tapi tak tau kapan harus menutup
dia yang takut akan kenangan tapi ingin mengenang lebih jauh....
dia yang menyongsong pelangi tanpa ada landasan untuk berpijak
dia yang mengatakan tapi tak menyadari yang terucap
dia yang berwarna dan semakin tampak memudar sejalan detik
dia yang berlari dan tampak terhenti oleh seonggok kerikil
dia yang tergantikan oleh sebuah ego
dia yang menanti dan tak pernah menghentikan penantian


way way everyday

you're the reason why i do love pink roses. thanks :')

way

Istillkeepthepinkrosewhichyougavetomeonthefirstdaywetookanditstillsbloominmyeyes ♥

butiran debu ~


namaku cinta ketika kita bersama
berbagi rasa untuk selamanya
namaku cinta ketika kita bersama
berbagi rasa sepanjang usia

hingga tiba saatnya aku pun melihat
cintaku yang khianat, cintaku berkhianat

aku terjatuh dan tak bisa bangkit lagi
aku tenggelam dalam lautan luka dalam
aku tersesat dan tak tahu arah jalan pulang
aku tanpamu butiran debu

namaku cinta ketika kita bersama
berbagi rasa untuk selamanya
namaku cinta ketika kita bersama
berbagi rasa sepanjang usia

hingga tiba saatnya aku pun melihat
cintaku yang khianat, cintaku berkhianat ooh

menepi menepilah menjauh
semua yang terjadi di antara kita ooh

aku terjatuh dan tak bisa bangkit lagi
aku tenggelam dalam lautan luka dalam
aku tersesat dan tak tahu arah jalan pulang
aku tanpamu butiran debu

(aku terjatuh dan tak bisa bangkit lagi
aku tenggelam dalam lautan) dalam luka dalam
aku tersesat dan tak tahu arah jalan pulang
aku tanpamu butiran debu, aku tanpamu butiran debu
aku tanpamu butiran debu, aku tanpamu butiran debu

Selasa, 21 Februari 2012

enchanted!

There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old, tired place lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?" across the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say


It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that

This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again

These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you


This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

Sabtu, 11 Februari 2012

wohooo~

hello buddy!
it's nice to find myself post something
well.... well... well guess what?!
i did it
i met him yesterday nite
after waitinggggggggggg so longgggggggggg times!!!!!
he just not realize something, and neither do I
he had been promise to me to meet me because he want to give me something
but it was cancel so many times but yesterday 11th February he fulfilled what he had been promised
below of this post. i would like to post some photos. check this out! <3




he told me the hand writing wasn't his hand writing but, his friend's
it would be better if everything was made by himself
but, never mind
ussimi ~

Jumat, 10 Februari 2012

move on- Bruno Mars

Whooo Whoooo

How do I end up in the same old place,
Faced again with the same mistakes,
So stubborn thinking I know what is right,
But life proves me wrong everytime,
Taking roads that lead me nowhere,
How do I expect to get there,
But when, oh when will I learn to just put you first.

I come to you now when I need you,
But why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own
But I was wrong cause only with you can I move on.
Can I move on.

Oh

When I awake it’s you that makes me strong,
And I know that you’ve been with me all along,
So many times I begin to close my eyes and listen to my heart,
With you life is so easy why do I make it hard,
Oh taking roads that lead me nowhere how do I expect to get there when will I
Learn to just put you first.

Hey!
I come to you now when I need you,
But why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own
But I was wrong cause only with you can I move on.

I get out of my own way, let you have your way.
Cause I realize I’m no good on my own,
I’m there for you, I’ll sell for you
I can’t live without you. Noooo

I come to you now when I need you, why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong.
With only you, only you, with only you.
Can I move on, can I move on, can I move on…

Rabu, 04 Januari 2012

friend need a friend indeed

i even can't imagine how disappointed kicked me out!
bahkan ketika Anda sudah memberikan yang terbaik kepada teman Anda, kemungkinan teman Anda tidak akan menoleh kepadamu dan tidak akan ada di saat Anda benar benar butuh
coba Anda bayangkan kalau Anda tidak memberikan yang terbaik buat teman Anda?!
can you imagine that?

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